When I left school I had no idea what I wanted to do. I always envied friends who had a goal, something to aim for. I didn’t. My best friend at school loved journalism and public speaking and as soon as she started her A levels, she knew what she wanted to be, a radio journalist. She worked hard at what she does and can now be heard doing the news for BBC Radio One! It doesn’t get any better than that! She followed her dream, did what she loved and worked hard at it. My problem was always that I didn’t truly love anything. I had no goal.
Actually that isn’t 100% correct. I loved to sing. The teeny-weeny problem was that I have no talent. If I didn’t have honest people around me, I am quite sure you would see me on Popstars, Pop Idol or any related program making a complete clown of myself. I am the sort of person that Simon Cowell stares in bewilderment asking “who told you that you could sing”? I think I may be classed as tone-deaf because I genuinely think I sound good. The noise I hear is good although I am well aware that there are dogs within a 10 km radius that have their paws covering their little ears wondering when the torture will stop.
Given the only thing I loved doing, happened to be something I was physically unable to, I fell into a job at a Solicitors. At the time I was 16 and decided to go to college at the same time to become a qualified lawyer. It wasn’t because I enjoyed it, it was so I would have the qualifications, climb the ladder, have more responsibility and higher wages. I spent four years at college and an extra 2 years training. In total, I spent 10 years working in law. It seems like a long time to do something you are not passionate about but I actually had a great time because of the people I worked with. The work itself wasn’t bad, I didn’t hate it, it just wasn’t fulfilling.
Then, at the age of 26, I had the first of my babies. Georgia was born and at first I worked part-time, partly from home. I stopped altogether just before she turned one. I haven’t practised law since, nor have I had the desire to. I have been lucky enough to spend the last 5 years with my children watching them grow. I found photography at a great time. I have been able to devote time to it and have thoroughly enjoyed very minute of the learning process. It’s so different doing something you enjoy. I am incredibly grateful to have the opportunity to pursue photography. I now have a goal. Watch this space!
Here’s a picture of Marcus the from first day I set up my studio.